Its been a long time since I have read a book or novel. A year and a half to be exact. At that time I was at my lowest emotionally and everything I ever liked, didn’t matter anymore. What happened seem petty when I look back now but at that moment it was a source of huge distress and mental trauma.
After 6 month of being emotionally unhealthy and ignorant of my studies, family, hobbies and myself I started to see life in a new light and tried to overcome this immense sadness. As my self-healing journey commenced; life throw another curve ball at me. My maternal grand father passed away (May his soul rest in peace), leaving my mother a mess. And seeing my mom cry is the most heart wrenching thing in the whole world for me. It devastated me.
Fast forwarding to 3 months after that; exam time. I had to prepare for my 2nd year med school exam. I had 2 months to prepare. I put myself together, reconstructed my mind to focus on it.
But one thing remained same, that is I cannot bring myself to read anymore. There was a time I would obsess over a book or novel and read it in 2 hours or a day but now, even if I try, I can’t.
And not reading has affected my sense of writing, my vocabulary and my creativeness.
If you’re reading this, then please let me know how I could focus on reading again. It pains me to not read. But even if I start a book, it fails to capture my attention and I want to obsess over a novel or book again.