death was much fun than living.

The sun shines brighter today; or maybe I have opened my eyes a little wider and a little alive. Was I dead for so long? Damn! It does feel like I have been gone for a long time. I stare at the beautiful sky from the depth of my grave, all the colors mingled together, …

Nightmare.

The night falls. Thunder striking the sky, heavy rain pelting the brick roof of his lake house. He was shivering even in summer, the night was terrorizing for him. He walked into the kitchen to brew some coffee, he placed himself on the kitchen counter and scrolled through his phone when suddenly, . . . …

Drowned

I drowned.   I drowned like I had never before.   Lungs filled up to the brim.   I drowned like I never knew how to swim.   I let go of your hand & just stared.   Loosing myself in your gaze.   I drowned in the ocean of daze.   Unaware of the …

Abandoned

"Shh! Don't cry, I will protect you." She hushed up, little hiccups escaping her quivering lips; it was one of those nights when she saw her father beating her mum into a pulp. Her brother, Elias, holding her in his arms, trying to make her quiet or she would be the one getting punched too. Things …

Gone….

You broke my heart And claimed my soul Yet you are gone Like wind which never blew I tried holding on When other moved on You kicked me to the edge And watched me free fall Ripped our photos like memories Burned it into ashes like forest trees Yet you claim to be hurt When …

Why?

A thought crossed my mind, If the sun is so bright, Why it still gets masked at night. Why a melody only feels good, And not so much after some time. Why beauty is not constant, And why not everyone beholds it. Why life is not so perfect, And why we try to pretend it …

Tenure

Home is where the heart is; they say. I believe it. But as a med student I also know logically that heart is inside a membranous sheath called pericardium, then it is situated between the lungs and enclosed by the ribcage with a muscular layer on top. heart is surrounded and protected; well physically speaking, …

wondering life.

Sometimes I wonder if the rain is more enjoyable than the warmth of sun? If the daylight makes it more easier to forget or the deep slumber of night? If the city lights are soothing or the lantern and stars? If the simple taste of coffee can relax the uproar in my mind? If happiness …

betterment.

  So... This year, I have been a little more contended and a bit more relaxed as compared to the past 2 years. And this made me wonder about the reason for this change. Currently, I think I am getting hang of being an adult and making good decisions about the basic part of life …

questions..

  If love comes knocking at your door, what will you do? If love comes running towards you like the summer breeze, what will you do? If love comes in a mug of hot chocolate after a tiresome day in autumn, what will you do? Those aren't the real questions you know... The real question …

If life was perfect…

If life was perfect.... it wouldn't be called that for sure. But for some people life starts to suck even if one thing in their life is going wrong. And I do know that it's all about priority but sometimes we forget that if one thing is going down; there are plenty of things that …

Mental health day

Disease of the body which is visible and accepted is alright but society believes that the disease of mind doesn't count as illness. WHY? It very well exist, first of all. And it hurt us the most. It affects our day-to-day life and make us vulnerable. And dear, it is not a flu that will …

Letter to myself #1

broken chords can't be played. lost keys can't open the doors. unplugged wires can't lit the room. lost souls can't be found too. _SZ I am going to nerdy so bear with it, ever heard of autophagy? It's a process when a cell eats itself. So being a fan of analogies, I also think that …

Sorting out life.

Have you ever felt like you are falling? Like a feeling..... weird and hollow; an emotion, that makes you think that you are just empty, almost as if there is nothing left to lose...yet there is something, an impending doom lurking in the shadows that is waiting to happen and will leave you more hollow than ever before. …

Destiny..

Destination. The reason to drive. Mentally, physically or emotionally. But does the journey matters more or the destination? Well, if the journey is fulfilling, beautiful and joyful; then all one wants is to keep going and forget about the destination. But if the journey is tiring, and a person is still driving towards the destination …

A fleeting thought.

I think that a human is always unsatisfied and ungrateful. At least that's what I have observed in me and the people I surround myself with. Also, a human is also selfish when it comes to ones who claim to follow a religion. If a man wants something in life, he whines and work and …

Life as it is.

Restless, stressed and bitter. I am no longer better. Disdain and listless I roam. My journey hasn't been of a winner. ~ what it feels like when everything is just wrong. So, past few days has been a journey that has taken a toll on my heart and mood. First of all, let me just rant …

Med Diary.

Any profession has its pros and cons. But for me medicine is the one and only profession that exist. And in no way I am degrading anyone I am proud of everyone who is making an effort to establish their dream in anyway. For me, medicine has been the only profession I looked up to …

endemic.

A disease or condition found regularly in a particular area. Currently in the Asian sub-continent, enteric fever or typhoid is an endemic. Almost everyday 2 cases are reported of enteric fever just from a single hospital. Scary, right? Well, first of all, what is enteric fever? It is a disease caused by a bacteria named salmonella typhi or paratyphi. The symptoms …

Laparoscopy.

Segregation. It means to set someone or something apart from others. And this week I learned how we as human beings segregate our emotions. Every week I attend a surgery, I observe it with excitement and awe. It is exhilarating to see a neat surgery done. It doesn't mean that I don't care about the …